I'm soo amused by Zia nowadays because of her antics and her countless facial expressions. She's so very interactive that you'll be soo tired playing with her all day. She's even so accomodating and "pa-pansin" with strangers whenever we're out in a mall or eating in jollibee. Sa tingin ko madaling ma-kikidnap ito..hopefully not. Here are a few pictures of her...

The pictures above were taken when she had her first set of teeth.

Zia and her expression of a fish.




The pictures above were taken in contis while we were waiting for our orders..Ang Kulit!!!

The picture above were taken in jollibee atc...Kulit talaga nya!!!! :)

I was running so hard...

My heartbeat was quick...

The finish line was just a stride away..

Just a second away...

Then I tripped...

I did not finish the race...

Something I was working on real hard for the most of the month disappeared in an instant...I knew this would happen to me, but stupid me believed that everything will be okay...Trivial as it may seem to others, this was a goal that I've set this month that will in the long run reap rewards for me...

The problem now is that I will have to start again when december starts. I don'y know if I could do it again though...I've lost a part of my confidence because of it...Damn...

They say that blood is thicker than water.
Maybe that's why we battle our own with more energy and gusto than we would ever expend on strangers.

-David Assael, Northern Exposure, Family Feud, 1993

A few days back, I was sharing to my wife my 2 weird dreams. The weirdest part of it was that it was almost the same type of dream. However, the first one involved my second eldest brother and the second one included my other brother before me. The dreams was so bizarre and freaky that I can't enumerate the details of it. It was comprised of heavy feelings, violence, arguments, etc involving my whole family with my 2 brothers...Of course my wife and I could not make anything about it or what it meant...

Now comes the creepy part...Just today, my dad said that he will forward a message from my eldest brother. The text said about the "still" ongoing "sama ng loob" between my 2 brothers. And my brother suggested to gather the whole family at dinner tomorrow to patch things up finally..Though I texted my "Kuya" and told him I can't go because of work and the short notice but did say that I WILL find a way to join them if they can confirm the dinner thing..

Now, I worry more about my mom than all these things. I can't help but think what she might be feeling right now that her two sons have this awful disposition towards each other. And this afternoon, I was not able to sleep right coz I had this dream about my mom. Though I can't remember the details of it, I can still feel up to my insides how my mom might be experiencing right now. Something like this is definetly a burden to her. I now worry that her health might get affected because of it...Kaya nga sana I try to make it a point to visit her as much as I can..Para ako si Anakin from Starwars na sobra affected sa situation ng nanay nya..Though I was not the perfect son when I was still living with my parents and I don't have the perfect answers to these problems, my prayers will be with my family. The only thing I can do right now is to pray to HIM that everything will be fine in the end...

from left to right: New year at Kamias, QC 2005, My Mom with all her "apos"(girls only)

A few weeks back, I finally got my regularization papers after about a month has passed. In it was a line stating that since I got a high performance grade, I had a 10% salary increase and a promotion to a higher level CSR. Its not high but I am happy about it. My previous and current supervisors told me that only a few get those recognitions. In my batch alone, I can count with the fingers on my right hand the people who got the same recognition as mine...I really worked hard for it during the first 6 months and hopefully this will lead me to bigger things ahead...Thank you also to HIM!!